It's been a while...

...More like it's been an entire year.

Currently sitting at my office desk (another internship) at a firm in Parsippany and reading my previous blogs of when I interned in the city is making me deeply miss it. I traveled Europe a couple weeks ago, I'm going to be a Senior in college in about a month and my entire world has changed since my last post. It saddens me that my whole past year is summed up in "So, I'm going to be a Senior next year" - I've gained so many memories in the past year and so many new experiences and relationships bloomed. That prior sentence is sugar-coating my junior year where in reality,the year was a total shitshow and I partied more than not.

It's a funny thing reading about my rambles and thoughts in blogform from a year ago ....atleast my values and perceptions have stayed the same for the most part, if more intensified.

My summer consists of good friends, my shore house, alcohol-filled weekends, reading, exersizing, WORKING full-time, and driving myself crazy over something immaterial and untangible. I'm attending Identity Festival next weekend at Jones Beach which should be insanity.

#Confession: I'm only writing this blog because I want it to look like I'm actually working right now at my desk.

I've learned that people bullshit more than get actual work done (which I'm ironically doing right now) and that after school, I want to work in a young environment (preferrably the city) with a challenging, fast-paced corporate culture with plenty of travel benefits or something along those lines. Office desks are boring. Routine is boring. Typical Sagitarrius? To a tee.

Okay, I should get back to Christian Grey working.

Like I said in the previous post, I'm attending an Ellie Goulding concert tomorrow in New York City at Terminal 5 with a friend. #Excited. 

Some of her notable songs:

Under the sheets (particularly my favorite)

Lights

Starry-Eyed

The Writer

...and of course all the songs that she has done covers for and anything that is remixed with Bassnectar, Skrillex, etc. I'm also a huge fan of her Pandora station, great songs.

Cya

Thursday

By Thursday, I'm feelin' real good. Not as tired, knowing that tomorrow is Friday. Knowing that I'm going to an Ellie Goulding concert after work tomorrow and possibly AC Saturday...

So this morning when I was waiting to cross 8th Ave, I asked myself "Is it possible for someone to have such a positive aura that you can almost feel the positive energy radiating from them?" Because I swear to god, I was standing next to a monk on the corner of 40th and 8th (yes, fully dressed in a red pieces of cloth) and I couldn't help but to feel happy, as if I was picking up on his peaceful, happy, monk vibes (wavelength). Haha, okay I sound crazy but just thinkin'.

Time is an illusion

The past is a collection of memories. We can remember it but only contact it in the present. The future is a what we perceive, hope or expect to happen, yet again we do this in the present. Therefore there is no past or future, we are always living in the present, constantly changing in the now. However, to cope in life and mentally stable ourselves, we and yes we all do this, measure our rate of change by identifying with terms: past and future. Even Einstein said time is an illusion.

Well isn't that a mindfuck?
It's all how you perceive it just like your entire reality is as your perceive it to be. Your world is created by the thoughts and whatever's going on in that little head of yours.

Once again, rambling.

iPad

First blog post on my iPad.

It's mid july already; 10-5 mon-fri interning has consumed my summer but I can't complain... Only on Mondays. I'm pretty much a professional on twitter now. I should probably practice saving money or something.

Rambling, I'm gonna stop.

Funny thing is, I don't really know if I want my iPad now that I have one. It's kind of just an unessecary toy.

True life: I'm standoffish.

City girl

Who would've guessed? I never intended on interning in the city and yet, I start tomorrow.

I, I, I'm ready for ya.

Silus Botwin

I recently became addicted to the Weeds series; watched 4 seasons in 2 days. Since being home is oh-so-exciting, this show makes it bearable that I am not living my URI-life for 3 months (give or take).... no, Wayneville is not that bad, I just really love finding something that consumes my time of being an insomniac.... and it's a great fucking show.

By the third season, Silus Botwin matures and wow, is he sexy. I think I'm beginning to see a pattern here in my taste in guys (on set); blondes? I don't know. I still don't consider myself not having a "type".

Do me..... that's all.

But for now...

My future.

I can almost taste summer

Imparo cosi nuovi di me.

Mike Vogel

 You are so sexy.

In my hungover-movies-in-bed-all-day state, I was watching She's Out of My League (which was actually very funny), I discovered lead actor Jay Baruchel's co-star, Mike Vogel. If I had a type, this would be it.

Now playing:

Lights! - Potomac Boys club
Mean Planes & Taylor Gang - Wiz Khalifa ft Taylor Swift
You are not a Robot - Hoodie Allen
Shoot your Love - Cam Meekins
Young blood (xaphoon remix) - Chiddy Bang
I wanna know now (Bob Marley remix) - Xaphoon Jones
Lights (Bassnectar Rmiex) - Ellie Goulding
All of the Lights (ft Lil wayne, Big sean &Drake) - Kanye West
Sun of a Gun - Oh Land
Nobody's in Love - 2AM Club

Some oldies:
Jude Law and a Semester abroad - Brand New
Last Chance to Lose Your Keys - Brand New
Brat Pack - The Rocket Summer
Space Between - Valencia
A Better Place, A Better Time - Streetlight Manifesto
My Friends Over You - New Found Glory

Amped

Om namah shivaya

....I said I wanted to get that tattooed on me in my previous post. No.


Little did I know that that specific mantra is worshipping the lord Shivaya which goes against my Christianity. Oops. In all honesty, I thought it was just one of those meditation hymns. I was wrong..... so nevermind.

Psychic

Deleted this post.

Hyatt Regency

Janet and I were spontaneous and booked a trip to Fort Lauderdale, Florida this afternoon and yes, we depart tomorrow morning! Cya NJ, goodbye snow, hello gorgeous weather!

Jeremy Scott

My life:

Tenderest touch leaves the darkest of marks

and the kindest of kisses breaks the hardest of hearts

Should be on an island somewhere...

But I'm not and I'm completely okay with it. Home sweet home.
I hear Gary snoring from across the house, and I'm okay with that too.


Many things to do before going back to non-real life, vacationworld, island of rhodes, axhoe...

1)Mani/pedi
2)Highlights
3)Eyebrows
4)Spend as much of Janet's money as I can #ShoppingSpree
5)Get drunk with friends
6)Eat real food
7)Get my palm read
8)See Danielle
9)Get drunk
10)Get drunk
11)Get drunk
12)Get drunk
13)Apply for internships?
14)Get drunk
15)Noone cares

December 21, 2012. 11:11AM Thoughts? Freaky shit.

________________________

Well that all went to shit, flew to FL instead. 

My life is too busy to blog.

Goofin

Oh, it's crazy.
It's crazy I've been here.
I'm inside my head,
How do I get out of it?

Do me.

Sup

I deleted this post as well. I'm not so much of a blogger, rather keep things to myself.

Dear menstrual cycle,

Please go away so I can stop eating everything in sight. No, I do not appreciate the 100% carb diet that you promote.

Thankyou.

Ramble

Today in class, we were asked to specify things you remember from the transition of being in kindergarden to first grade. The teacher called on me and I went completely blank. Wait, but I'm actually really bothered by the fact that I have no brain cells left to remember anything from that age in my life. Everyone in the class raised their hands and had answers and I'm still completely blank. When I told the teacher that, she replied "When people blank, usually you block out that part of your life because you didn't particularly like it." But, I didn't not like it? 

I don't know, just rambling...

WRT 105

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I always wanted one...

Lingo

Talk to me like a real human being .......please

Lately...

I really enjoy:

Bakerystory
Cupcakes
Not having a blackberry
Dollar drafts
Not knowing what it feels like to have a full week of classes
Eliptical
Mobile uploads
Being a free bird
My new chef, John
Not Grape Ultra Burnettes
Pastel colors
Eggs
Index cards
Skinny vanilla latte
Buddha (always)
Adderall
The fact that I have five packages coming

I have a sick obsession

Lyrics

So in my place no hate shall enter. Livin' up high, up there, up there. Copin', floatin', I will find peace somewhere. -Kid Cudi

Two hearts with accurate devotions, but what are feelings without emotions? - La Roux

It's all false love and affection,
you don't want me,
you just like the attention.
I'm not your toy

And we lay, we lay together, just not too close. How close is close enough? -Taking Back Sunday (This band never gets old)

Lady Gaga/Illuminati

Watch this.

So I was googling Lady Gaga and her relation to the Illuminati and many pages talked about the government's Project MK-Ultra and mind control. It's really interesting and disgusting. This link to a youtube video shows the intro to Lady Gaga's "Fame" music video. It creeps me out, if you listen to what she is saying, she's selling her soul to the devil for the fame. She is one of the strangest.....

Illuminati All Seeing Eye (The Horus) .....her and every other celebrity portray this in their music videos, album covers, pictures.

There's so many other symbolisms, my heads starting to hurt but I have to admit, I'm fascinated.

Bits

OCD

...pertains to me when it comes to many matters but frequently, it has to do with numbers. Even numbers. Facebook default amount of pictures always has to be an even number, for example right now I have 30 Facebook defaulted pictures. Not done by coincidence but because I am always deleting or adding pictures to have this perfect number, whatever it may be at the time. Or in the car, when driving the heat for the driver side and passenger side must each be set to an even number, usually 80 degrees considering the arctic we live in lately. There is more.... hmm, I wonder when and why I became like this?

New Years Eve

Right about now, I'm thinking about how extremely overrated it is. I mean of course, I'm amped for it but the entire process of getting to it is fucking annoying. What dress am I going to wear? Where am I going? Who am I going with? How am I getting there? Is this really how I'm beginning the new year? Stupid. Well, me and my friends decided to go to Canada this year. The idea, I love; don't get me wrong. It's just been so stressful lately. I know that once I'm there I'll be having the time of my life.... and I'm really not one to stress, but the past two days have been full of all kinds of stress. My remedy? Blasting I-tunes for all of my house to hear and looking forward to drowning myself in massive amounts of alcohol (and I suppose, writing a partial amount of my feelings down here). Feeling better already.

Just to clear things up, I am not naive enough to believe that how you spend New Years Eve and when the ball drops is how your upcoming year will be spent. Bu-llllllllll shit.

I woke up with negative energy and it had to be released....

Nonetheless, I cannot wait to spend New Years Eve and a trip in Canada with great friends, making great memories.
Cya 2010, I'm a different person than when we first met and you have been very good to me.

Dependently Wealthy

Dependent: relying on or requiring a person or thing for support, or what is needed.
Me.

Okay, I'm 20 years old. I have no job or serious responsibilities besides getting good grades. My parents are my entire source of income.... never had a problem with it until now. I feel so dependent on them and it's starting to frustrate me. Today I realized as I'm buying a ticket for a club in Canada for New Years Eve with their money that I am f-ing 20 years old and I need to become more independent.

Okay, that is all.

4 out 5

Sitting in my fourth class, just did a presentation on the "Starbuck's Effect".... Craving some. One more final to go (tomorrow) 'til freedom. Tomorrow night will be the last night raging at URI; this depresses me. #Perrys. Over one whole month in the 973... if it's anything like the Wayne Valley reunion 2010 at Greenhouse over Thanksgiving break, I'll be a happy person.

My train of thought was interrupted.....

Birthday!

Great great great weekend. I love my axhoes and my pwesents

I am so grateful for the people in my life.

Reality check: last week of classes, finals so soon, new jersey so soon. Get my partying in while I can.... I mean as much as I can considering the amount of work that I'm assigned.

I don't know how I feel about blogger.... I really like the idea of the whole thing but I never have anything significant to write about/feel comfortable writing about and being put into cyberworld

Bored of this bye

Happy.

On cloud nine.
For absolutely no reason, love these days.

I have so much; I am feeling extremely thankful today for everything in my life.
Abundance.
Self-realization.

Ps. Last night was fucking awesome. I think every person at Rhody Joes was blacked.

"Joy is the best makeup."

Wired.

I'm too awake for some reason to sleep and blogger is surprisingly fun. It reminds me of when I was in the 7th grade and had a Xanga, haha.


I have nothing interesting to say.